Hello, Sera. I'm writing this somewhat late. It's been a rough week.
I had a brief chat with a close classmate of mine (he calls himself my “unofficial counselor”) about our situation. It put a lot of things into perspective. To be quite honest, I've been miserable since Sunday. I've broken down so many times this week already. I've wanted to give up, and to be honest, I still do.
If I must admit it, I'm jealous of the BEMANI chat. I feel like I've been replaced. I softblocked all of them that were following me yesterday. And, as silly as it sounds, I'm mad about the bread jokes. That's been my signature joke for over a year and now, everyone's using it themselves and won't even recognize me over it. Like I said, it's silly, but I wish I could at least be credited. They've been ruined for me at this point.
I make terrible decisions when I'm jealous. It's going to take a lot of personal strength and inhibition to prevent myself from damaging things any further. I'm really sorry about the sudden mood shift over these past few days, but it's something I've needed to get off my chest because it's eating away at me from the inside out. So, I'm sorry.